I am starting to feel resentment toward my husband.?

you know is ok only is its not affecting your relationship or rather then improving it the person is to some chicks. when i was pregnant my hubby didn't show me any true affection but deep down i felt like he is just fu***** me for his release. i would cry deep dpwn because of his jerkiness. i felt like his prostitute and then i find out he isn't probably attracted to me. i am trying to get ver it its been a year and now i am not that girl who just cries because he is a jerk but i am starting to hate him slowly for putting me through hell. how do i let it go. deep down i know he is one of thsoe men who go back to their old ways when its safe. i don't want my heart trampled. i am so scared i want to love him as much as i did before but then i think if i hadn't found out the person he was he would have kept on doing the same thing to me.