HELP! need answers?

Hi I am Naturally dark brown (Halle Berry) skinned but up to 7 months ago I was diagnosed with anemia and now I am very light faired colour (Jennifer Lopez) and I would like to be my Halle Berry complextion again I can't use Tanning Beds and I can't use tanning sparays because my skins to sensitive but I hate my colour now and I'd rather be black than white (not that i'm racist or anything) help!